A Weird Thing
Tonight after banquet and partying and general madness that ensued, I went back to my dorm. I knew that in my partying I was ignoring a bunch of stuff I needed to do - sign Impressions, clean up dorm, pack stuff, take care of some choir stuff - and when I got back here and saw all that demanded my attention, all the junk and stuff I had accumulated over six weeks that I had to organize and pack up, it looked overwhelming and I quickly became frazzled. It was partly because I didn't feel resolution here at the end of Bible School, mostly regarding to the choir and copyrights and not having the recording experience that I wanted.
Then it dawned on me: just leave SMBI on Saturday instead of Friday. What a genius, freeing, beautiful idea! No need to rush around and work myself all up when I can stay here and have a relatively leisure day here to get organized, relax, and hang out with what are left of my friends. And my hosts in Virginia are indifferent if I show up Friday or Saturday.
Oh, that made me feel so good.
I'm not sure if you can figure out why this is such a significant point in calming my raging restlessness tonight, but it sure did. One of the things I covet is relaxation, and I don't like to be just totally swamped and overwhelmed. Well, I found an antidote to that for at least one day.
posted by Byran @ 11:58 PM
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1 Comments:
Not so weird, my friend. Unless we're both weird... I believe in a principle that goes something like this - Leisure equals Success. That's sounds incriminating, I know. I feel that the quality of energy/focus that I can put into a project when I'm comfortable is worth trying to arrange my schedule so that I can be relaxed rather than agitated. Kind of like, if you're always pulling your hair out in desperation to get from one place to the next, you're likely going to miss something important. So take your time, apply yourself properly, do a good job, and move on. I have some "zones" in my life that I must protect in order to maintain my comfort and whatever. I can't stand being rushed, specifically when I am in-charge/performing/on the spot; I need to go relaxed/prepared/composed. If I'm rushed/disoriented/tripping over myself to get there, I usually feel frazzled the whole evening/day/activity. (Sorry about all the ///. I'm rushing to get back to my work :-/
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